The Testament of Apostle Anthony

[Messiah Apostle Anthony]

"GOD'S LIVING BIBLE ---- THE THIRD TESTAMENT ---- GOD'S NEW REVELATIONS
God's Apostles Of The Third Testament
Apostle Anthony

THE TESTAMENT OF APOSTLE ANTHONY SCHWAR

(God Working With Apostle Anthony Through The Holy Spirit)

Born on the 20th of May 1967, in the UK, my father coming from a wealthy Catholic family, and my mother a church of England, family, that was more of the working class.

My father was privately educated and his father a London banker; my father's brother a scientist.  There was also priest and nuns within his side of the family, although my father was lost to rock and roll, motorbikes and alcohol .

My mother is a loving beautiful soul.  Her father and mother having split, my mother was charged with bringing up her siblings at an early age. Her father was an engineer, but his brother was said to be a Druid with the maiden name Ray, it could well have been truth.

Life for me and my 2 siblings was very hard due two my father's alcohol problems and his violent abuse to us, but worse of all to my mother.  I remember we didn't have blankets to cover us at night just a coat. My father's abuse eventually made my mother have a breakdown and she ran away from the family when I was 7.  I remember the day it happened.

The police turned up and searched every where in the house for her; something I repeated many times as the weeks went by.  Eventually I was given to an aunt and uncle and my sister, to my mums granddad, and my brother stayed with dad. Later on I discovered my mother was in a mental hospital having electric shock treatment to help her forget the past.

One year later the family united, but my dad was addicted and could not change his ways.  I remember picking my mum out of a cupboard, broken teeth and covered in blood as my father's dinner wasn't ready when he returned from the pub; this was to be the last time we all where together.

I was placed in care, in a children's home at age 9.  My sister with my mother and my brother with my father we split.  I remember being scared,  left in a place with no love nor care, where the staff where regularly abusing sexually and violently towards the children, and the children where regularly violent towards each other and they called this a care home!

I was always running away and spending many nights alone, sleeping rough in the back of old buildings and cars, hooked on glue at the age of 11, laying in bushes just trying to get high.

When I was 16, I was allowed to leave, given enough money to get a bed set and left to fend on social security, with no support from then on in.   I turned to crime. I was never a bad person, I never wanted to hurt anyone, I was just lost ,

I met a lady who within a month fell pregnant and we married, but as we grew it was apparent that we where not a good match.  We had a son my first born who I loved with all my heart, but circumstance meant we had to part.  Within 2 years we split.  I remember it well.  I lost my job.  She said to me,  'Well I'm not supporting you and she took all her belongings and food, and locked it in a room and refused to feed me.  I remember the thought...I'd show her. I went out and had an affair while we where split with her best friend.  This made the seal of no return.

Within 6 months I met another lady;  we fell in love and yet again, within a few months was pregnant.   My chance at another family again, but even before the child was born she was having affairs and sleeping around, even daring to bring people home she met in the pub.  I was crushed; a second family crumbling before my eyes. I fought for that family for many years, but after being thrown out once a month for three years, broke down myself.  I had had enough. Soon after this she confided she was pregnant again with my third child but didn't want me back.

Devastated by my life's experience, I set up once more on my own.  The hurt was in my eyes, in my heart and in my soul.   I remember one night I was all alone, my heart bursting my veins pulsating, my eyes streaming with tears I looked in the mirror and caught a reflection of myself.  I starting yelling and screaming God, I want to change.
 GOD help me be the person I want to be, not what this world has made me; please GOD I CANT TAKE ANY MORE.  I had hit rock bottom.

I soon met a group of friends,  who as part of that group there was a young lady, that as soon as she saw me, confided in a friend that she loved me and I was the one she was looking for.

We fell in love, but this time it felt different.  She nourished me and helped me,  and instead of trying to mold me, loved me for who I was. She told me she can see my pain and wanted it to be better, and instead of hindering each-other and stopping each other from being who they where, we should help eachother be who we wanted to be.  I thought back to that night of my biggest darkness and said thank you, and we still say thank you 18 years later.

Part of my friendships at that time was Steph who introduced me to the medicine wheel and cards designed to teach you of Animal lessons, and kinship with your animal guides etc.  Part of the learning involves finding your 9 totem animals, which after learning about the wheel and all the totems, I did.   It amazed me how accurately they portrayed the inner person I was.

It was a huge key to who I am today.

One morning I got up and wanted to write a poem, something I had never done.   I wrote a poem called 'Welcome Come in my Brother'; it was about turning the world to rights my rights anyhow, and about careing for the world, and getting rid of money.  It was about showing your love, and seeing what we are doing in this world, and living in the past and turning it around.  I will post it in my poem section under the heading 'Welcome my Brother.  What I was left with, I knew I wanted to share with the world.

 I had found GOD.

I wrote a letter to the UK government.  I wrote letters to every church organization I could think of; Buddhist, Christian, Jewish, Muslim,  in my excitement, but had no reply apart from one stating there is only one with that Power and that is Jesus.  This was from the Anglican church.

I wrote many poems regarding life and turning them around, all with ANIMAL MEDICINE TEACHINGS.  I was convinced God was Telling me this was His ways.

I went back to sleep for another 7 years, until I went for healing as I was suffering migraines, and the healer said your a writer aren't you.  I laughed and said, 'yes'.
 She said, 'You are one of us' and I should start again.  This was in 2011, so I did but what I started learning was horrible.  I was sitting in nature meditating when a dragon fly landed on me and stayed for 20 minutes.  After this I started learning about the way the world really is and how the system we where living in was run.  I couldn't believe it.
 It was so horrible that I started to close down in fear, being threatened by them not to mess with them, and their system I closed down completely.
 The dragon fly stands for dissolving all illusions.  I stayed shut down until this year, when I heard a voice tell me it was time to learn of the good ways.  I learned about love and Christ consciousness, I felt bliss of the Father enter my body and heal me from the hurt of the world I just learned. I felt love and protected, and decided to start writing again; this time it was different.

A spirit came to my wife and told her I had to stop doing what I was doing.  It threatened her and told her that I was weak and being guided wrong and she had to stop me as she was strong.  My wife set about to stop me writing and it drove a wedge between us for the first time.  It told her one of us was to die soon and we needed to spend as much time together as possible, so she told me to give all my attentions to her.  I agreed to stop as much as I was doing, and share the time with her more fully, but still something was wrong.,

I told her I couldn't stop being who I was, and the reason our love grew so much was as we were to help each-other be who we wanted to be, but she pushed and pushed and became more negative about my work. Whilst meditating one day, a spirit came to me and said he was my guide his name was King David.
I refused his energy as it didn't sit right with me.

One day my friend Muriel Blanc asked a question to God for us about Jesus Through God's Living Bible, a site I knew,  as I had met Anne Terri through Spiritual Networks and in the question popped up about this spirit calling himself King David who was trying to tell people he was their guide and God Confirmed Through Anne that this was an evil spirit and King David was not a guide it was trying to imposter.  I automatically put to and 2 together and set out to do something about it. 

My wife and I that night had another argument about it and I told her that I couldn't stop being me and she was driving us apart; a house divided was this spirit's aim to try and get me to stop so I spent the night on the sofa. In the morning my wife came down and said she was sorry and she loved me and would try harder to help me. She explained what went on and the penny dropped again, she felt abused telling me she was so weak as she was tricked by this spirit . I told her now we know the truth, we could be free of it and we cleansed our home and ourselves ... stronger together more then ever we defeated the evil.

Since then I have had the strength out of love, not fear, to be who I am not giving in to fear for the love of the people, the planet, the animals,  the nature and God.

INCIDENTALLY, THREE OF THE CARDS THAT CAME TO ME IN MY MEDICINE 9 TOTEMS WERE:

BELOW BUFFALO - BELOW STANDS FOR WHY YOU ARE HERE ON EARTH
BUFFALO STANDS FOR PRAYER AND ABUNDANCE

 THE PRIEST- THE KEEPER OF THE SACRED PIPE.

WITHIN MOOSE -  WITHIN IS YOUR OWN MEDICINE.  WHAT YOU GIVE MOOSE IS GRANDFATHER'S MEDICINE; STANDS FOR SELF ESTEEM ,

IT'S WHAT I WANT TO GIVE TO ALL IN OUR WORLD

AND ABOVE IS YOUR CONNECTION TO THE UNIVERSE.

 AND I RECEIVED

LYNX - THE KNOWER OF SECRETS.   I USED TO THINK THIS WAS A CURSE BUT NOW I KNOW IT WAS A GIFT ,

It didn't say I was the keeper, just the knower, and the secrets I learned are no longer secrets.  I placed myself there for the good of our planet,  that I believe, and as God Knows my heart is truth.  I fought the fear of the entire system and God's love got me through.  He Brought me to Oneness so I can do my part; I bringing our world to Oneness along with a million Christs Who have come this day.  Together we are strong , divided we fall Amen xxxxxxxxxxx



AMEN"